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We decided for now that I'm staying home with Hayden because with a part time job & daycare costs around here, I will just about break even and it's a waste of my time. So I'm currently collecting my allotted unemployment that I'm trying not to feel guilty about because I've been paying into it since I was 15, and be a house wife! So far, I love it. It would be nicer if I had a car, and could participate in more play dates and family visits, but we are just barely keeping our heads above water with finances. We would be fine if my dad wasn't such a bum and was holding his end of the bargain up. That's a huge frustration right now with me. It causes me such bad anxiety. When we decided to all rent a house together, it was supposed to benefit us and him. Since our move in date (Halloween 2009), we have bought all of the groceries, beer, toilet paper, laundry detergent..etc.. for all 5 of us. RIDICULOUS. Andrew just keeps enabling him, and I put a stop to it. We are living on pretty much one income, and that's just part time. My dad works full time, and the only thing he needs to pay for is a new scion that he just bought, his diabetes medication, and his car insurance. But he of course spends his money on weed, cigarettes for him and my sister, and drinks at the YardHouse. He doesn't take care of himself at all besides cutting sugar out of his daily intake of iced tea and keeping up on his meds. It angers me. I used to be such a daddies girl, but now I can't stand him and think he's pretty pathetic at times. We graciously let my sister live here, because I feel bad making her go live with my mom and stepdad since he is such a douchebox, and the tension from their bad relationship is so thick you can cut it with a knife, and she plays with Hayden a lot, so that's always a plus. Now, we are practically raising her. Without us buying and making her dinner, she would be living on one can a soup a day and maybe some top ramen and iced tea. She's a huge pain in the butt at times, but ever since I had Hayden, I feel very maternal towards her and we have a pretty good relationship. She's 17, but she definitely needs someone to take care of her basic needs while she finishes up high school.. Anyways..the point of the story is.. we are praying Andrew get's full time soon. Like seriously that's all we can think about. He put his name on the list for interviews for a couple full time positions. One, this lady got because she was #1 in sales, and the other one, they didn't even bother interviewing him, they just gave someone the job that was qualified. He just put his name on two other lists. Seriously, I'm freaking out. He has to get a full time position. Not having health benefits is horrible. I need to go to the doctor badly for a few different things, and we will be better off with finances. I do think he will be less involved with Hayden and tired a lot, but hopefully he will get regular hours where he can come home and still unwind and have a life before going to bed. He's so great to me. So helpful with the baby, and takes care of the dirty work with bills, trash, car maintenance, paying off debt, etc. Things I couldn't stand to do and would probably procrastinate on. So I'm crossing my fingers and praying hard that he get's to interview soon!