Hayden was half choking the other day. It really scared me ad got me thinking. One of my worst fears is to have him choking and to not be able to dislodge the object. Like the heimleich not work. Then what would I do? I would grab him run downstairs and pound on every door screaming until someone could help me and someone else call 911. So again, it was haunting me today, so I asked andrew just now if he knew what to do, since he is watching hayden tomorrow while I work. He says "yah, do the heimleich." I asked him what he would do if it didn't work. He told me "I would make it work." then he rejects my idea about running door to door screaming for help. I got mad because he was so non chilant about the whole thing, that I freaked out. What? He wouldn't do everything in his power to keep his son alive? Of course he got offended. Of course. It was offensive. And I'm sorry for that, but those are the kind of insane mommy things that go on in my brain.


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