Going in every 5 minutes.

3:10am
3:15am

Maybe that book was right, when they miss their naps during the day, it messes with their sleep pattern. Hayden missed his afternoon nap. Poor guy is screaming in there. I hope it doesn't take too long for him to calm down. -ts now 3:18. Its hard for a parent to sit there and listen to their baby cry themselves to sleep. You just want to pick them up and make them feel better but he will never learn. All I can do is go in there and comfort him for a minute. Okay 3:42. I have been rocking him and got him to sleep but as soon as I put him down he kicks his legs and freaks out. Its driving me crazy. He is just going to have to cry. He's so tired.

exhausted

Ahhh. I somehow got talked into watching caelin tonight while my mom is at her friends, and keith went to go hang out with my dad. Andrew is in LA with his friends and I am always always always stuck at home. Its not the fact that I have the baby, but I would like some interaction with someone other than the baby all the time. Especially when Andrew starts working if he gets the job at apple. I will have no car and no way to visit my friends. And my best friend kelsey is moving away to Tampa at the end of the month. I'm sad. One thing I'm looking forward to, is bring the baby over to Ashton and Trents house on monday for a playdate. Trent is only 3 months old, but it will be nice to have mommy socializing while hayden can play.

Vacation day 2

Okay, I'm here in Oxnard, CA. My mom and grandma rented a beach house for a week for our family reunion. My aunt bev, aunt Sandra, and cousins rented one each as well. We got here at about 3pm yesterday. We had dinner last night at my great aunt Bev's beach house because it was my Ming's 65th birthday. Then my great grandma showed up and surprised us all. All the way from Florida. Hayden and Caelin both slept in their playpens pretty well last night. Hayden seems to be feeling all better. His mystery illness turned out to be Roseola. 3 1/2 days of fever and then when it went away, he broke out in a light red rash on his chest, back, and legs. He was so uncomfortable the first few days of the fever, but now that it is gone, it doesn't seem like the rash bothers him at all. Today, we spent all day at the beach with the family. He had so much fun. He loves the sand.

I'm so done though. The drinking and then drama that follows, soooo many people. I'm already sunburned after applying lots of spf 50 today, and I just want to go home. I think I'm going to spend most of the day in the beach house tomorrow. I have to watch Caelin anyways. My mom is going to Santa Barbara to do some work for some friends.

On another note, Andrew has had to move completely out of the apartement today by himself. No help from anyone. I miss him so much and I just want to talk to him today. I called him and he was mean and tired. Yelling at me because I still apparently had a lot of stuff still at the apartment and he had to move it out for me and his mom was yelling at him for not moving his stuff out fast enough. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I'm really really tired and think I might lay down. Hayden is already in bed. Everyone is at my aunts house again having some Michael Jackson dance party. Hah. They are probably all going to come back drunk and obnoxious. uggh.

walking documentation

Before I forget... I need to document. Hayden took his first steps on June 18th. At 11 months 2 weeks He's now walking like a pro and runs sometimes. I'm so proud of my big boy. I just wanted to write it down somewhere before I forgot the actual day that it happened last month.